Audrey, You Make Me Better

Early in my pregnancy, I did genetic testing, like I did with all of my previous pregnancies. Once the results were in, my doctor called me and said that our baby would likely have Down syndrome. After I hung up, all I could do was cry. I’m not going to lie, my head was spinning with many different thoughts and feelings. What does this mean for our family? Are our lives over? Will people love her? Will people want to be around us? 

Our doctors offered further testing to 100% confirm the diagnosis, but we declined, as there were risks to it. We knew no matter what, we were going to love our daughter unconditionally and that God chose her for us. We let a handful of people know what was going on, and I’m thankful that our village made us feel supported and heard. We had an amazing support team of family & friends throughout, as well as the doctors & specialists we saw, to the nurses and our NICU family. They were all beyond amazing! We were never once met with any negativity, and for that I’m grateful. There was nothing to be sorry for; she was already perfect in every way. 

When she was born, it was confirmed that she had Down syndrome. While I was scared of the unknown before her arrival, I saw a lot of moms saying that as soon as your baby is here and in your arms, the fear of it all goes away. That was true, she was placed on my chest & all the questions & what-ifs about her life went away. All I saw was this little baby girl who was mine & so very loved. We may have a long road ahead of us & I am sure some days will be harder than others. One thing I know is that she will learn in her own time, just like any child does. Down syndrome doesn’t define who she is; it’s just a part of her. God chose Audrey just for us, and she truly has completed our family. 

Audrey will only be surrounded by love, understanding, and an amazing village of advocates. We are so thankful that she already has so many wonderful people behind her. She was fearfully & wonderfully made! 

Stephanie, Audrey’s Mom (Illinois)